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February Song (My Third Bloggiversary)

It started with just a simple game, that’s the reason why I made a blog here in WordPress…  Hindi ko alam na yung game na yun ang magbabago ng lahat…

more birthdays to come!!!

 Verse I: The Birthday

Biglaan ang nangyari, nag message sa akin si Momochan na nasa store ka nila, Birthday kase niya, hindi ko expected na iinvite mo ako, dun mo unang na share yung wordpress page mo.  I feel so flattered that you are really entrusting me these kind of big things.  January 26, 2009, I started reading your page in WordPress, doon ko na rin naisipang gumawa ng blog sa wordpress, doon isinilang ang dalawang blog ko… ang Melaminecholic at ang Yvarro. 

Verse II: Anonymous Blogger

I’ve posted interesting topics in both blogs, kilala mong ako si Melaminecholic… pero that time, hindi mo alam na ako rin si Yvarro. Maraming nag-comment sa mga posts ko… marami akong nadagdag sa blogroll ko, ang dami kong nakilala sa wordpress… at alam kong marami ring nakakilala sa akin.  You’ve commented to me saying that I am a promising blogger…  Natuwa ako dahil a part of me seems to feel that I finally seen something worth doing… Na kahit na sa simpleng blog lang eh nakita ko yung self-worth ko… Then you asked me to keep it low, That I really don’t have to show who I am in blogosphere, just like what you are trying to do.  I feel awkward about the situation… but I finally agreed, I deleted my real blog… and started posting at Yvarro: My anonymous blog…

 

Verse III: The Masquerade Game

And to make things even complicated… we played a game… I’ll try to be anonymous, and you have to guess who am I.  That was the same time I decided to change the name of my blog from Yvarro to Maskara.  Nakilala ng blogosphere ang apat sa mga Maskara ko: Si Yvar, Esmina, Ravy, at Animse.  Simple lang ang mechanics ng game… Bago matapos ang February, you have to know who I am amongst the new bloggers on wordpress…

 

Pre Chorus: The Revelation

Siguro, I just made things so obvious, o baka matalino ka lang talaga (taragis na ip address yan)… dalawang linggo pa lang ang dumaan nakilala mo na kung sino ako.  Yun yung mga oras na sa tingin ko ay gumawa na nang pangalan ang mga maskara ko sa wordpress… ang hirap bawiin nung mga impression na ginawa ng page na yun.  At sa hindi malamang dahilan, huminto ka na rin sa pag k comment sa page ko.

 

Chorus: How to Save a Life?

Parang tanga lang siguro ako na naghahanap ng atensyon nung mga panahong iyon.  I admit minsan tae lang tong kaibigan mong toh… may mga bagay talaga akong ginagawa na hindi tama… Hindi talaga ako marunong makinig… Hindi kita sinisisi… ang ibig ko lang sabihin eh: Sorry.

Verse IV: Mema

Pagkatapos nun, sinabi mo sa akin ang mga ilang bagay na ayaw mo sa ugali ko sa pagb blog, na minsan mema lang ako, attention freak, epal.  That I have to be careful on every comment that I have to write, hindi ako nakikinig.  You even accused me na marami akong “Anonymous” na blog…

Verse V: When Fire and Ice Collides

You then told me one of the reason why you stopped visiting my blog.  Tae lang naman!!! Para kang girlfriend na pinagselosan ang bestfriend ko?, san ka ba naman ako babaling nun? Parehas kayong mahalaga… Pero suntukan na lang kung papipiliin mo ako… Ang irony lang eh kung paano naipit ang Tubig sa gitna ng Yelo at ng Apoy.

Pre Chorus II: The Missing Day

T’was your birthday… I appreciate that you still invited me.  Then you still made the effort of inviting me to go leave the town for just a weekend pagkatapos nun… Hindi ko alam na yun na yung  last time na magkakasama tayong mag gagala…  Can’t believe na nagtatalo pa tayo bago umalis ang bus galing sa “Vegas”.

Repeat Chorus.

Bridge: Two Years

We parted ways after that, never shared emails, or text messages…  Just heard some news about you from common friends on how you’ve been.  Still checking your blogs every time…

Refrain: Para sa Aking Saranggola:

Siguro kung tatanungin mo ako ngaun kung binitawan ko na ang lubid na magdidikit sa atin, isa lang ang isasagot ko: nilagyan ko na noon ng bubog yung pising nagdudugtong sa ating dalawa… para maging matibay at hindi nila magagawang putulin.  Lumakas man yung hangin… pinipilit pa rin kitang hilahin… pero sadya sigurong mali yung pagkakahawak ko sa pising may bubog; “Kapag masakit na… bitiwan mo na…” yan ang sabi ko sa sarili ko, habang unti unting nasusugatan yung daliri ko kakahila sa iyo pabalik.  Minsan iniisip ko na mas madali nga siguro ang mga bagay bagay kung bibitawan mo na lang… at hayaan ka na lang lumipad palayo…

Coda: Unfailing

Ngunit isa lang ang alam ko: Lilipas ang ilang taon… Magkakaroon ako ng maraming bloggiversary…  Magkakaroon ako ng maraming kaibigan.  Makakakilala ng maraming taong papahalagahan, ang magpapahalaga sa akin, ngunit hinding hindi ko malilimutan na minsan nagkaroon ako ng isang kaibigan na katulad mo… hindi ako mapapagod na maghintay…

Repeat Coda till fades…

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This is Not a Draft…

Well not exactly this time… just got a new netbook, and applied for a new plan for broadband… so I believe next month will be the start of one helluvablogging year. I would like to say sorry to those blog whom i wasn’t able to visit… to those contests whom I promised to join, but I wasn’t able to, to those comments that I wasn’t able to follow through…

Hiatus mode was not really my intention… I’ve been busy these past few months, and pc and internet connection was really that kind of accessible in my temporary place… IMG0364A

Tried to update, (and failed)… Just filled my new post lists with more drafts… And I always feared that what I was about to draft was all nonsense…

Maybe that’s the reason why I hid myself before by using some masks… I’m not really a fan of tagging myself in the middle of all my emotions… I’m starting to train myself how to breathe without masks… and I am asking for all your support on that. I’ve been blogging for quite a while now, and most of the time, my posts are all about metaphor and imagery… some are just make-up stories…

I really don’t know what will happen tomorrow, if I will be able to update this blog or not… if I will be able to continue posting here in Thumbnails, or If I’d opt to go back in my old website wearing masks…

I am somehow happy with my other blog… I can be who I wanted to be… Playing pretend has always been an option… been famous, got some awards, and even gained more friends… BUT suddenly you will realize that it is not you, but your masks are the real ones who are becoming famous… and they are the ones who are really gaining more friends… and they are the one who are really getting some recognitions and awards… Your masks were the ones who are taking the limelight while you are just the lame shadow on the background… Gee, I started to feel like being a bipolar because of my previous blog… no, I feel like being two person at the same time… I know at some point some of you guys have felt the same way too… When our masks takes hover our own personality, and losing ourselves in the process…

That’s when I remembered why I started wearing a mask here in blogosphere… I was afraid that no one will accept me of who I am.  I started wearing a mask because I was trying to please the people who are reading my posts… There are a lot of reasons why I started blogging before, but none of those are really for me…

This is me on my another attempt to be consistent on blogging…